|Orlando by Grace|
I left here feeling like... "Thank God that's over."
I had talked with the therapist about my extreme amount of resentment towards Sophie and how I don't really know if I am ever going to be able to let it go fully. I might have to just figure out how to compartmentalize it, because it doesn't seem to get better even when the relationship with her is getting better. I think that it allows me to feel more resentment and be more "real" with my own feelings instead of feeling calculated like we are walking on eggshells around her. I know that in this process we are going to have ups and downs- this was just a DOWN sort of time and it sucked that it had to happen when I was leaving town. But isn't that life?
We got to the airport at about 3pm and worked our way through the process to get on the plane. We had a three hour layover in Los Angeles where we ate a pretty gross meal and a busy restaurant. We took the red eye to Orlando and we arrived the next morning at 6am. (Which would feel like 3am to us West Coasters.)
I had bought a bunch of candy at the airport in LA. I was going to indulge. While Izzy stayed awake for hours on the flight it was all I could do to keep popping chocolates and Swedish fish in my mouth. Finally Izzy fell asleep and I started to fall asleep... and then I felt a rumble and a hot flash and I knew... I was going to puke. I did the next logical thing... I woke up Kim! Kim gave me a puke bag and I laid Izzy down next to me on the empty seat. The nausea lasted the rest of the flight. I never did puke but I definitely learned my lesson about the candy!
We got off the plane, got our luggage and headed outside to the warm steamy weather (at 6am) and waited for the shuttle for the car rental place. We rented a mini van (from Sixt rental- highly recommended European company). The mini van happened to have all the bells and whistles and whilst it was a mini van, it was fun to drive around Orlando for the week!
|Grace and Lego Woody|
|My Lelo Sisters- Hilary, Cindy, Heather and Ericka|
Thursday was also the day that we discovered you can buy "Adult Capri Suns" at the grocery store. The girls loaded up the freezer with the slushy drinks and they were so good. Friday morning we were outside in the pool early and lounged around on pool floats and talked, and talked, and talked, and cried and laughed and laughed some more and acted silly, and embarrassed Grace and the pool boys at the neighbor houses. Izzy and Grace loved getting to swim and took a few walks around the resort.
Friday Kim left us for her "house" and housemates. Cindy and Hilary were supposed to leave but decided that they wanted to stay. Each time that anyone made any kind of decision they were always wondering if someone would be upset. "Would the other women or Corey be upset if they decided to stay at this house and not go to the other house?" Etc. (My house was deemed the "baby house" because it was where the babies stayed. Or should I say BABY. Yes, I was the ONLY lame Mom who brought kids along!)
Corey had been saying all year long that this time away was for each of us to do what we wanted. To feel that we could really enjoy ourselves. If that meant getting involved in the classes and activities, or if that meant just sleeping the entire time- it was up to us to decide what was best for each of us. And you know what--- that was exactly how the rest of the week went. Everyone just did what was best for them and what would make them happy and most comfortable and no one judged anyone for it. I know that seems far too idealistic to get a group of 90 women together and not have anyone being bitchy and judgemental. But truly, it was the most supportive, loving, amazing, make you feel comfortable, hugging, smiles that warm your heart, stories that make you want to cry, people who had come so far to be there, and it was more than I could ever officially put into any kind of words what so ever.
|Grace and Izzy|
|The house pool and hot tub|
Saturday night we went to downtown Disney and walked around, watched a show and had dinner. It was busy and so fun. We lost Grace for a few minutes but she took it all in stride. It was the one time I was glad that my teens have cell phones!
On Sunday a friend who was passing through town stopped by with her two girls and it was so fun to finally meet them in person and to offer some love and support. This Mom should have really been at ETAAM with all the parenting life she has lived and the big time self care that she is due!!
|Missing those palm trees|
I can't wait for next year. Really. I am SO glad that I went. I am SO thankful that I didn't let money, or time, or being away stand in my way. I am SO thankful for my hubby and Leishan that they were able to step in and care for the other kids while I was gone. I didn't even worry and that made the time away even better. And of course the time with Grace and Izzy away was precious too. Grace was such a good big sister caring for Izzy and it was awesome that Izzy didn't have to miss out on her Mama time.
I love my soul sisters... all of them!
|The best week ever|