Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Just now, I had an overwhelming moment of affirmation that I knew I needed to just slow down and write about. (ahhh breathe)
Today in the mail a Christmas package arrived from my God Mother and Aunt- it was mailed from Florida on December 15th- and just arrived today- (weather has been bad keep in mind)- but the gift couldn't have been more timely. It caused me to slow down what I was doing, to take the time to open it, to stop having anxiety about leaving, to stop being sad about packing up Lena's things... to stop obsessing about whether Bear and Fedna are really going to leave Haiti in less than 48 hours... to just BE.
I opened the gift and the mail and I cried.
Tears of affirming joy that I am truly on the path I am supposed to be on. The one that HE wants me on- the one that HE wants my family on.
Inside the gift was a bottle of perfume- called "PRESENTS". On the back of the perfume it says:
Monday, December 29, 2008
Please also PRAY specifically that the passports for both children are issued first thing tomorrow morning. They were supposed to be ready this morning and they were not- and now the passport office is closed for the day. We must have the passports first thing tomorrow morning in order for them to have a Visa appointment in time to be escorted out of Haiti this week. (All offices are closed on Thursday and Friday because of the Holiday.)
Thank you so much for all of your prayers and support.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
If my camera was a bit better and this "sassafras" was a bit more cooperative I would have had some adorable pictures on Christmas. This is the best that was taken of Angeline-
woe is me... she is one sassy little miss.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Grace is now 12 (and I was just trying to get used to Cole being 12 which was last month)- and what this means is that they each can drink a "pop" each day. (One can of soda is the big thing in our house when you turn 12.
Best friends are a wonderful thing.
Happy Birthday Sweet Grace
I thought this was too cute to not share.
And I think I should toot Lauren's horn a bit and let everyone know Lauren's artwork was published this month!
Lauren received the honor of back cover and two pages inside a comic book that was for local student artists- GO Lauren!! We are so proud of you.
Angeline did an impressive job! She loved the PINK frosting and M'M's the BEST.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Well guess what? Today I went back to Walmart to pick up some pre-Christmas, pre-snow storm stock up items... and my excuse for going back would be that I wasn't driving. Kimmie (my friend) was driving me. (I like to call her Kimmie because she just smiles and looks at me like I am so strange and perhaps it annoys her a little- which at times gives me jolly joy.)
So Kimmie was brave enough to take her mini van out on the roads, which weren't too bad- but for me- I am not one to be driving the big ol' 15 passenger anywhere if the roads aren't completely clear.
Kimmie chose Wal-mart- and I try not to argue with her often. I would have passed and chosen perhaps Target' or somewhere else that maybe isn't perhaps so unethical to shop at but- I was planning on bringing my Walmart bingo with me and I left it at home.
(Yes, I know it's offensive to some of you! I also realize that talking about Walmart in such a light might be offensive to some of you- there is no doubt the prices are GOOD.)
We got there bright and early to avoid the crowds and by the time I was done- it was getting busy. I checked out and waited by the door for Kimmie and spent some time people watching and wishing that I had remembered to bring that darn Walmart Bingo with me.
I decided that I would add a few- maybe even change out of few of the choices on here to add a few of my own:
1. Baby not wearing shoes, a coat, hat or gloves coming in the door carried by her Mom whose wearing pajama's ... when its 8 degrees outside.
2. 99 people in hooded sweatshirts (OK it is REALLY cold today and we do live in Casual town, USA- thank goodness!) I just couldn't get over the number of people with hoodies... I am going to buy a shop here and call it HOODIES. It would be a VERY popular place- and I would own a lot of them.
3. Man just looking around while his wife frantically Christmas shops (and then let's take this a bit further and say that the same man declares out loud when I look at him like- what are you doing guy?... "I am JUST LOOKING! That is what Men just DO, we just LOOK in electronics while the women shop.")
4. Someone talking loudly about re-gifting instead of buying new things (Same man from number 3, his wife was so embarrassed and I was laughing so hard- he was actually very funny.)
5. Angry bitter woman over 70 workin' the door (And wouldn't you know it that I BEEPED when I went out and then I pulled that darn DVD player out of my cart and waved it back through showing her that it didn't get de-magnetized. Then when she asked for my receipt I told her that they were giving them away for free in electronics and I didn't pay for it. She didn't look too amused at first then when I produced the receipt she said.. "Ah-ha I know what register you went to- and I am gonna make sure she gets written up!" Then I felt terrible...)
6. Mom rips open FAMILY SIZED bag of Cheeto's and gives them to preschooler to eat from because she is having a fit... (Ooopss... that was something I did.)
If you have anything to add to this list- please leave me a comment.
And now it's time for a PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT:
If your child is under age 10 and it's less than 15 degree's outside- they need a coat AND a hat on. I can't even tell you the number of people that came through the door with their children AND BABIES in long sleeved shirts- no coat- no hat- no nothing! Brrr!!!
Back to making home made pizza dough... delightful recipe found HERE.
Friday, December 19, 2008
The other day Angeline asked me:
"Mommy, can I pray for Isaac."
Of course I replied, "Yes Beanie, you already prayed once today, but if you want to pray for Isaac again- go right ahead."
Tears welled in my eyes at my sweet and kind Angeline as she bowed her head and put her hands together so tightly and stuck them under her chin, she closed her eyes- and said:
Let Isaac come home soon. He's my brother and I love him so much. He's my best friend.
At this point I am seriously fighting back some big welled up tears and breath catching sobs... I was just amazed at her gentle soul, her kindness, he compassion, her love...
She held her hand up, palm up...
"I need a chocolate now."
OK, so maybe the sweetest TOOTHED sister would be more appropriate. :)
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Isaac's file is in MOI!
What does this mean you ask?
There are several steps that take place inside MOI. When Isaac's file comes out of MOI then the passport should be almost done (I think)- he receives his passport and he has his Visa Medical exam and then a Visa appointment at the US Embassy- then he gets to come home!!
(We already did our birth parent interview.)
How long does this all take?
It can vary anywhere from 6 weeks (speedy miraculous timing) to... well... I dare to say how long these steps have taken some people... over a year in rare cases. (Praying that's not ours!!)
We have had enough hang ups, hold ups, and slow downs- please keep on praying Isaac home- your prayers are working wonders!
All of us- patiently waiting for Isaac
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Mad + Grouchy= Mouchy
This is one of my children's favorite words and especially Angeline's- when she is having a bad day- she tells everyone:
"I'm Just Mouchy!"
I am still sick- another day without a workout- yet another day with a long to do list not getting done...and I can't think of any other way to describe how I feel better than mouchy.
Hopefully tomorrow I will feel better- and much more accomplished- and I can make up a new word (grandtastic or joyppy for example) to reflect how I am feeling.
Momma doesn't like to be sick!
Friday, December 12, 2008
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Here is Angeline finding her shoes with her "treats" from St. Nick. Angeline has some appointments tomorrow and Thursday so some of us will be out of town the next two days. I am most looking forward to getting to see my friend Bekki and her host baby Saintana, read more about her medical journey here.
I am not looking forward to Angeline's MRI on Thursday, its sedated of course and she had a terrible time with her last experience with coming out of anesthesia- so I am praying that she won't have that happen again. (She just basically was hysterical for a really long time and it was scary.)
So tomorrow the appointments are for OT and then PT, where they will do a developmental screening for Angeline and also check on her motor skills progress with her walker. Then she meets with the NeuroDevelopmental lady who is following her closely to watch she isn't showing negative signs of her syrinx. (Fluid on her spine.)
Thursday as I said before- is her MRI and then we meet with the Neurosurgeon to discuss the results. I am praying for a miracle and that her syrinx has resolved and of course that it hasn't gotten worse and that she doesn't need one of three very major surgeries:
1. Decompression for her Chiari Malformation
2. Shunt in her spine
3. Spinal cord de-tethering
(And all that information was for you medical folks out there who like to keep up on Bean's medical progress.)
Pray NO MORE SURGERY for Bean! :)
Here is a picture of Lena wearing a build a bear jacket- she is still pretty little- this picture made me laugh.
Here is sweet little Bear with his dressing on him. His little feet in the picture remind me so much of one of the first pictures I ever saw of Angeline. (They have the same club feet.)
Please continue to pray for him. They are looking for his parents today and we are hoping that they can be found ASAP. The folks in Haiti are doing a great job keeping him well fed and stable.
We are still praying home this handsome little guy. And specifically praying his file is going to be in MOI by the end of this week. :)
Lena's new thing lately is to torture Angeline. She knows exactly how to snatch things out of her hands and make her scream- then Lena does it more and more. She is quite an ornery- but adorable little thing. She can often be found ramming her walker into the baby gate or people's feet. :)
Here is Lei and her new haircut. The gross story of the week was mid way through Leishan's vege sub we heard a "clank" and her newly acquired lip piercing fell out onto her plate. So the rest of dinner was spent with Grace trying to screw it back into her face. This was a gift from a "friend of her's. Moral of the story could be one of the following:
1. Friends don't pay for friends to get their face pierced
2. What exactly were you thinking Leishan?
3. Nana will offer $50 for you to take it out for good.
4. Next time go for the nose or eyebrow.
I will try to update if we have any big news while I am out of town.
P.S. KB loaned some resistance bands to me so I won't miss a beat on the boot camp training! :)
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Today Baby Bear was fever free!
His "bump" on his back is looking better.
He is having some blood in his stool so please pray this is just a passing thing that can be treated with meds.
Please continue to pray for his caregivers and pray for continued wisdom as they are doing the best that they can. They are incredibly giving, selfless, loving people who are busy beyond what you and I know "busy" to be. Pray for them.
Please also pray for Bear's parents!!
Pray for communication with them and wisdom for them and good health for his Momma who is really just days from his birth day.
Please also pray for Bear's loving doctor here in the US who is counseling the situation from afar, and for the hospital as they work through the "hoops" and "logistics" to try to bring things together.
We have hope!!
Keep fighting Little Bear!
Here are some more pictures of my children from the SB party yesterday. :)
All of the children recieved a present of a new game this year at the party. What a blessing and it has been really fun playing lots of new games today.
My sweet hubby and children spent a lot of time today cleaning up the garage to make a little play area for Bean's slide and "outdoor" kitchen. (So when its not too cold we have an extra play area because we like to stay busy at our house to put it nicely.) They also started to hang some lights outside.
Lauren and I took Angeline to preschool swim time and then I swam laps and then Lauren and I spent some time sitting in the hot tub. The lady who was originally sharing my lap lane didn't know how to swim so it was making me nervous the whole time. (I admit it that I once was a lifeguard in a past life.) She told me that it was ok to share a lane with her but that she was going to need to stay near the wall because she could only go a couple feet and then she would sink. She had on a lot of clothing over her swim suit and the whole thing was bizarre.
After she got done in my lane, someone else joined me instead who was wearing a shower cap and each time I passed her or she passed me- she would say hello and smile. It was an interesting time. :)
While I was swimming I did my favorite thing, prayed. Its peaceful for me to swim and it really brings me a great deal of focus. I feel grounded and centered and level and calm. It was nice to have sometime with just Lolo and Bean. When we arrived home, the house was clean, the laundry was mostly finished, the garage organized, some lights hung outside, and my children were dressed and ready to head out to the Pioneer Christmas that was down the road.
Lolo and I stayed home with Lena and Bean and we all took a little nap and I worked on book 2 of the TWILIGHT series. (Yes I am a loser- I don't care these books are SO romantic- seriously. If you haven't read them, please do!!)
It was really the perfect Sunday and I was thankful to have some time to clear my head and just BE. I admit that I am starting to feel a bit overwhelmed with Lena leaving us in a couple weeks. I just wish that I knew more about her family and siblings and maybe what their needs might be so we can bless her family. I want them to be in the best position as possible for her to come back into their family and I don't have any peace at all about that! I just don't know much of anything- other than the way she arrived and the condition that was she in. :(
I am going to try spending less time worrying and more time praying. Remind me of this later ok?