I updated the music today, enjoy! This has been such a strange and busy week on the emotion front. There has been good news... Bugs MRI looks good and she should be going back to Haiti with Ella soon. Both of the girls are nearly 16 lbs now and doing well... except Ella has had a runny nose and now has an ear infection so she is on antibiotics and on the mend.
Kim and I won't be going to Haiti to take the girls back. There is still no definitive news on Isaac's adoption and since Salem is going soon, we will have her and Crystal take the girls back when they go to pick up S and R for cleft palate surgery here in the states. It will happen sometime in the next couple weeks, we aren't sure when. Kim has been gracious enough to offer to fly with me to meet Salem somewhere in route from her home to Haiti. While I am excited about the idea of the girls reuniting with their families, it's still sad to see them go! It's hard on my heart and heavy on my mind. I have been talking to my Mom, sister Nina and Kim about ways that we can perhaps support both of the girls families for years to come. Maybe even with a monthly amount to help them off set the future medical costs and such that they will have. Just knowing that we will never likely see them again is hard. I am thankful for having this opportunity to help them and love them. And I am glad that I was able to love them truly like my own, as hard as it was to not keep the walls up, these babies needed our love. (The love from us all who have helped them during this journey to health that they have been on.)
The situation with Isaac is frustrating beyond belief. There is a chain of command that I have been instructed to follow and it makes the situation feel cold and weary at best. I want to be able to be a parent who can advocate for their child without holding back. But I have to just pray and wait and when I want to advocate and do something to help the situation, it's frustrating and hard. It's like playing telephone when you are a child... it goes from one person to the next to the next to the next to the next to the next and by the time it gets to you, it comes across as "pray and wait", " we have no news"... and I want to be able to talk to the people who are holding the file and those that are able to help it move. I also don't know at this point if its being held up because of needing the new Procuration, or because of the possible UNICEF investigation of IBESR, or because we are a large family. If it's because we are a large family, there is nothing that I can do to change that. If its because of a paperwork error, I would like to know when that will be rectified, and if its because of the investigation, then we have to wait and see... but it would feel better because I am waiting with many other families and it will just take time. Or is it because of all three? Who knows? Praying and waiting.
Getting sued stinks. The situation with the court hearing in November is weighing heavily on my mind. I know that we did the right thing and the only thing that we could do given Angeline's dire situation, but I don't understand... why when we were doing the right thing does something so bad have to happen? Was there anything that could have been done differently? Was there something I should have done? My Mom is upset about the whole thing and that makes it twice as hard on me because I don't like to see my Mom upset. I am thankful for the enormous support system of family and friends that are working hard to advocate for Angeline and my family. I need your continued prayers. I want to just live my life and do my best and not have this hanging over my head anymore.
Home school starts next week and we are looking forward to getting back into the routine of things. We have some fun things planned for this fall that I am excited about. And Lulu is in Kindergarten, so that is going to be a party in and of itself. :)
My big boys come home on Monday and then start their senior year in High School next Wednesday, I can't believe that I have two more children getting ready to finish school already!!! At 33, you just shouldn't have four adult kiddo's. Where does the time go?
Sorry for the downer of a post. When I couple busy life with burdens beyond my control, sometimes I get to feeling in the dumps and just need to let it go to feel better.
On my knees...